100 Monologues is a project where I’m writing monologue scripts, performing, and filming the pieces. Since I’m beginning to dabble in acting, the project is meant as a means for me to acquire more acting experience where I can work on refining my craft. You can find out more about the project here.

Below is the script from the “I Want to Feel Something” monologue. If you’re a student who would like to perform this monologue for class, just make sure you credit me, Maggie Coyle, as the author. For any other use of the script, please contact me.

100 Monologues: #38 I Want to Feel Something

They think I’ve turned into this crazy person who doesn’t care what she does and how if affects her life or the lives around her. But no, that’s not it at all. There’s a reason to my madness. I’m habitually running red lights and running off with strangers on purpose. It gives me a rush. Just embracing the moment and running wild with it, makes me finally feel something. Can’t you understand that? I haven’t felt anything for months…maybe even years. But getting caught up in these moments and doing something wild and unexpected, it makes me feel good, even if it’s fleeting. And right now, I so desperately need any moment where I can feel good. I’ve been run down with grief and sorrow for too long…I want to finally feel again.